It has been a trying 5 weeks. First Sam was sick for 3 full weeks. He had a 20 day long fever before it finally broke, and it turned out it was a nasty ass sinus infection which was a more uncommon bug and it took them time to figure that out and find the correct antibiotic for him. When it seemed at last he would be well, and we looked forward to a fun week ahead two weeks ago, it ended up not quite working out. Being sick for so long had drained him and working was about all he had energy for. He actually was allowed to be short a days work and make it up this past week. Then to top it off he went through a week and a half of the worst insomnia he has ever encountered which left him even more exhausted and sleeping most of my day away.
Now that was hard, clearly it was hard for him, but even from my stand point it was hard. I waited as patiently as I could for three weeks while he got well and then I still couldn't do very much with him. To top it off I missed him like heck. For one thing while he was sick and going through the insomnia most every night I would forfeit most of my Skype time with him and send him off to bed, to at least try to sleep, so our normal hours a day were cut back to maybe one or less than one. That really took more of a toll on me than I had thought. I cherish that time with him every day and when its not there, my days just feel longer.
It was also hard because I felt like we hadn't had that spark in so long. Sam and I have such a strong chemistry and we bounce off each other so well, and I think we release a lot of our tension that way without even knowing it.
I was very excited for our 1 year anniversary of being in our official D/s, and it pretty much came and went without much of any excitement because he was still sick. That was hard for me, because I am a bit of a sappy person, and that time did mean a lot to me. I know that I am lucky to just have my slut and for our entire relationship, and I don't make light of that at all, but I really wanted to have a memorable anniversary, and there wasn't anything memorable about it at all, other than knowing that 11/27 made a year. I am working at letting that go and not dwelling on it, because overall just being with Sam means more than a special date.
In the 4th week during his insomnia there were some days that Sam really did surprise me and I felt so Mistressy again and he felt so slutty again. It was pure bliss even if we didn't do anything too major.
We spent a few short hours playing and I had Sam tie his cock and balls up very well and very tight. His balls were tied with many coils of rope stretching them down very tightly and then the rope wound up around his cock, leaving no skin showing but the head. It was such a sexy sight and it was the first time we tied him up quite like that. Then I made him stay rock hard and throbbing while we whipped his cock head with a rope knotted whip. It was wonderful to see his cock trying so hard to grow even harder (it was hard when we tied it) than it already was, against those ropes. The head and balls were just about purple and the pure stringing pain of the rope and that cock fighting to stay hard was enough to keep him hard for quite some time. This was on a day that I once again did not expect we were going to do any play at all, and then we were able to share this and it was just what we needed.
I decided my slut deserved a reward. It's funny because Sam and I share so many things so intensely, that I don't often reward him. He doesn't expect a reward for every good deed or every time he behaves either. We don't evaluate his progress every week and issue rewards or punishments. When he makes mistakes or needs correction or punishments or reminders I give them. When he is exceptionally good, or surprises me with what he can give me, he will be rewarded. Rewards are special to Sam because I don't give them out for every little thing.
This time I told him he was being rewarded because I was impressed at how hard he tried to be my slut despite the insomnia and his overall behavior was very good that week aside from being tired. I told him that from Sunday to Sunday (which ends tonight) he would be given an opportunity. He WOULD cum 10 times and 10 times exactly. How he would cum would depend on his behavior and that he still had to have permission for each before doing it. If he was behaving well, he would be allowed to have full pleasurable orgasms, and if he was behaving poorly some of them or all of them would be ruined ones. The reward was actually in the "opportunity" to have 10 orgasms. I don't ever give my slut 10 orgasms in a week so Sam was very excited about this reward.
Unfortunately the insomia and having to work an extra day this week has made it hard for him to cum that many times. So he found himself at Sunday morning today with 6 orgasms to have for me in one day. He had one in the shower this morning, and unfortunately for him he got called to work for the overnight hours. Which isn't so bad since he lives on my time zone anyway. It only was a bad thing because we were going to play a few hours today, but in reality there were bonuses with it. He makes more money than normal, it counts as his Monday work day and when he gets home, its his normal time to go to bed anyway and now we have our entire Monday free just for us :). So this basically means he has to cum for me at least 4 times at the office, maybe all 5 there, or one at home before bed. Now this can be fun.
I didn't waste any time being disappointed because let's face it, this can happen. His boss doesn't call often, but when he does, Sam must go. You see, he is allowed to work from home all but Mondays, and during flu season he isn't even going in on Mondays either, unless they need him. This was actually the most ideal "being called to work thing" that there could be. Sure, of course I was looking forward to playing today, but we will play this week. It seems the insomnia has broken and this week really should be a great week!
On Thursday night we were doing some light play. I got Sam to the edge and told him that he wasn't allowed to stop and he wasn't allowed to cum without permission. Normally when we play, I allow him to pull his hand away just in time not to cum if he must. The main thing is that he never cum without my permission. This time I wanted to challenge him though and it had been well over a month since he had cum (on my terms) live with me. I longed and ached for it and wanted it badly, but I wanted to tease him too. Besides it's my Mistressy right to tease, hell it's my job. He looked so sexy there on the edge, and for once it seemed he would be able to hold it for me, but then my slut got too excited and was very close, he started pleading with me and it seemed it was mainly to stop, so I asked him what he wanted more and he said to stop. I didn't say anything at first, giving him the chance to correct himself, and there was no time, he would either cum or go crazy, so I told him to stop. Then his cock just sort of quivered and he held his hands away and I thought for sure he was going to have a ruined orgasm for me. He didn't exactly have a ruined one, but he did come too close to cumming for my standards as 4 drips of cum escaped even though he told me there was no sensation at all of even a ruined one.
I often make Sam ruin orgasms. Well maybe not that often, but he knows I love them and there is always a chance I will order them up, even if many times I do like him feeling pleasure when I let him cum for me. I was disappointed that those drips of cum escaped but mostly that when given the perfect chance to show me that he really is MY cum slut, he told me he would rather stop. Now we have since talked and he was basically so horny and crazed that he couldn't think straight and it just slipped out and he has convinced me he really did want to cum for me at that moment. See Sam and I have been working at deepening his status as MY cum slut. I know he is a slut who also loves to feel extreme hornyess for me too, but that should ALWAYS be on MY terms and when I desire it. His only want should be what I want. I want him to be MY cum slut. I want him always wanting and aching to cum for me. I want him to want to cum for me so badly that regardless of how long it has been since I last let him cum, cumming for me is what he longs for most. Then when I do decide to give him desperate hornyess for me it is even more frustrating for him and even more enjoyable for me. Besides I don't feel someone can really be a cum slut, without really being a cum slut, that means when asked if you want to cum or stop, the answer should always be to cum. And him being MY cum slut doesn't mean we won't pursue long denials at times or that I will even let him cum, it is just a mindset that I want him to have.
It also suits perfectly to his rule that unless I say he is not allowed to touch that cock, he is to be touching it all day every day (as much as possible) in the ways that will drive him most horny and crazy and longing to cum. So I definitely do my part to keep him in that mindset I want.
After I told him to stop, we tried again to rebuild but something in that few drips coming out, or in him knowing how disappointed I was, really had an impact and the moment was lost. His cock went soft and there wasn't a chance for anything else. This was disappointing as well and the rest of the night was fairly tense until we were able to fully communicate before bed, what we both felt and went to bed ready for a new day.
Sam knows that one thing I told him is that he WILL cum 10 times this week no matter what happens. He knows I am serious about it. It was a reward and it will be done. Many times our plans don't go as we hope and I adjust things or give more time for things but this is not one of them. So that means today my slut will for sure feel like a cum slut. I know these won't be as pleasureable as the O's I intended him to enjoy with this reward, but they will still be O's.
Sometimes there is punishment or correction that needs to be delivered right away and other times it can be put a bit on the back burner. Even though there is something to correct/remind Sam of this week, I decided this was not so severe that he needed to have his reward cancelled before he came all ten times. Besides any time he displeases me, just knowing I am disappointed is practically punishment enough. However, he did displease me with his drips of cum that escaped that cock without my permission, and he needs to be reminded of who that cock belongs to and cums for and aches to cum for and what that cock's purpose is. So tomorrow after his O's are done tonight, he will start a 4 day reminder.
There were 4 drops of cum that escaped so he will endure correction for 4 days.
4 days with 4 ruined orgasms for me each day...I think that 16 ruined ones in a row should be enough to fully remind him not only that he has no control over that cock because he gave all of it to me, as well as remind him how nice it is to be given the priviledge of cumming for me. I am sure he won't be asking to stop when he is on the edge again for a very long time, if ever.
4 days he will spend 4 hours with that cock and ball unit tied up very tightly as an added reminder it belongs to me fully.
4 days he will spend 40 minutes with 40 clothespins on that cock and ball unit feeling the pain and remembering that the cock between his legs will suffer or feel pleasure as only I see fit.
He will also spend 4 minutes 4 times a day with that cock being crushed underneath heavy books. One time he will do this on a video so I can see him and he will tell me what he has thought of and learned from this entire correction.
Oh and of course as normal during these 4 days any time he is not doing something on this list for me, he is to keep that cock constantly aching to cum ( and I mean cum for real) for me. I know for a fact that 16 ruines ones is going to be hard, but I want it to be hard for him. I also know each one is going to leave that cock harder than before and even more frustrated and longing to cum than before. And I am going to delight in each and every time he pulls his hand away, especially after a few have passed and more than a day has passed and he really longs to cum for me and he can't do anything but pull that hand away again and again and again and give me all the pleasure from it.
I do hope this correction serves it's purpose and that after this I will really see my slut being even more of a cum slut than ever before. And I told him that as he goes into this to remember I have already released my disappointment, after all just knowing he was sorry was enough, but that he still must do this and learn from it. I don't feel there would ever be a mistake severe enough (unless it was a lie or betrayal) which would mean that I would stay disappointed or upset for very long, but still, he must pay and pay he will.
I know he's going to read this post today while he's at work, and I will even have him reply to it so I know all of his thoughts to what I have said here, and I know my slut well enough to know that some sections of this are going to make his cock throb and probably assist him well with having another O for me at work.
When I have more to report, I will be back...till then hope you enjoyed this post.
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