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Sam's Rules and Rituals

Revised December 31, 2010

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For a Christmas Present in 2010 I offered Mistress to take complete and total control of all things related to me being her submissive slut. I no longer have any control over how she uses me as a slut, with the exception of the few hard limits that neither of are interested in anyway. It is my responsibility to be open, honest and communicate to Mistress as well as try my very best to follow her commands and be obedient. Mistress will punish me or correct me if I am not behaving in a submissive obedient manner, however she may choose to reward when she sees fit as well, but I will not expect rewards for good behavior unless she gives them to me. Given that Mistress now has total control over me, she has the right to modify or add to these rules any time she pleases, and now she no longer has to discuss them with me unless she chooses to, but she does have to let me know when she wants something changed. If Mistress allows to give input or my opinion I will appreciate it but I will never again expect it.

Morning Routine:

~ Upon waking, I will strip my clothes if I am wearing any and remain naked until shower time and then I will see if there is clothing instructions.

~ Next I will email Mistress good morning and apply my lipstick.

~ I will go to the cafe for my morning coffee and paper (unless I choose to stay home for this) and I will be back home within an hour.

~ When I am back from having my coffee and paper time, I will let Mistress know and then go do my work emails.

~ Then it's time to answer any emails that Mistress has sent that didn't need immediate attention.

~ Do work to complete an hour from where I left off with emails.

~After that it is time for showering, shaving and taking care of any beauty needs Mistress wants and then if there isn't any clothing instructions I can either ask for clothes or I am just to wear my default clothing which is a slutty pink shear nightie that has slits to show off my slutty legs.

Bathroom Control:
I am required to have permission before peeing as my pee and my bathroom usage belongs to my Mistress. The exception to this rule is in the middle of my sleeping I may pee freely. I must email/call my Mistress and ask permission for peeing. If she is unable to answer my request I must wait a full 20 minutes before going pee and for the morning pee the wait is 10 minutes. If I do not ask and pee without permission or do not wait the full amount of time for her answer Mistress may correct or punish me as she sees fit. Mistress has the right to deny my pee request, or make me do her bidding in order to pee. Mistress also prefers it if I ask to pee offering something creative when asking.

Clothing:
Mistress has complete and total control over what I am wearing both inside and outside my home at all times and also it is her right to decide what I wear around friends, family or on an office day. I have no more control over my clothing at all. I am expected to be in my clothing for the day within 2-3 hours of waking, and if I need more time I must get permission. If at any time during the day I wish to change or remove clothing I must ask for permission. If I am ill with a fever I will attempt to ask but if Mistress is unable to answer I am allowed to dress more warmly and change clothes as needed. I must also have all clothing items washed and back in use within 2 days of wearing them.

Shaving:
I am required to keep my cock and ball unit shaved every 2-3 days to prevent stubble as my Mistress does prefer a smooth cock and balls, but also to prevent stubble from damaging my sensitive skin. Mistress also has total control over all of my hair. She can instruct me to shave those areas as she pleases and I must do it. I will keep my arm pits shaved all the time and I will shave my legs at least 2 times per week. I will shave my chest, belly and ass at least once per week.

Beauty Care:
Mistress has complete control over my beauty care needs. This means she controls how my hair is styled, what deodorant and perfumes I wear, my nails, my eye brows, my make up, etc etc. Bottom line is I have no control of anything beauty related or where and around whom I must wear these things. She can send me for manicures, or eyebrow shaping, or waxing or anything beauty related in public, and I have no control over that either.

Lips:
Mistress prefers my lips to always be colored for her, so I will wear my lipstick at all times unless I have permission to remove it. If I remove it for any reason without permission, even an unexpected family or friend or office visit, Mistress will still punish me as that is not her problem and she expects to be in total control because that is what I gave to her. The colorful lips are to keep me focused on my Mistress and my status as her slut all day long. I am also required to have at least one lipstick on me at all times when I am outside my home, so I may still keep my lipstick refreshed.

Toenails/Finger Nails:
My toes and fingers are to be always painted for my Mistress. Once per week I am to remove all polish and replace it with new, but I am also expected to touch it up as needed through the week! As with my lipstick this is not allowed to be removed without permission for any reason or I will be punished.

Toy:
My cock is simply a toy that belongs to my Mistress, and it's only purpose is to please and amuse her in whatever way she sees fit. I am not allowed to touch that toy without her permission. I will only touch or stroke her toy as she has outlined, nothing more and nothing less. I am allowed to ask Mistress at any time for permission for stroking, rubbing, and so forth, but I understand she may say no and deny me even the fun of touching it. If she has given me stroking time or rubbing time, there are no restrictions on edging, but under no circumstances may I cum without her permission. So I may from time to time be able to surprise Mistress with long edges. In addition to touching Mistress also controls what types of bondage, pain or anything at all that happens with her toy. I may also ask for these things too.

Horny Level:
Whether I am being allowed to touch or not, I am expected to be always as horny as possible for my Mistress and in the mood to happily accept any commands from her. Being horny 24/7 is not always realistic, but I will do my best to be the type of submissive slut she desires, with or without a high horny level because she has total control anyway.

Asking and Accepting:
My Mistress expects a balance between her commanding me and me asking her for things. This is partly because she loves when I ask for things, but also because it will help to ensure that between her commands and what I ask for, we balance each day.

Communication:
Mistress does not wish for anything we are sharing to become a burden because we are in a 24/7 D/s relationship and not every day is the same. I work from home but that is not to say that sometimes my work isn't difficult or won't take all my concentration at times, because it will. Mistress does not want our relationship to negatively impact my work, so I will make sure that I communicate with her all through the day with how my work is going and if I am hitting rough spots. The goal is that I be focused on being her slut and remaining in her total control, while balancing my work load too.

Cumming/Denial:
All orgasms that I will have belong to my Mistress and are only decided by her. I have no right to cum without her permission period. If I accidentally were to slip over the edge and cum without permission Mistress will punish me, but if I were to purposefully play with her cock and cum, the punishment would be severe. My Mistress can order me to cum any time she likes and I should be ready to be her cum slut, she can make me ruin orgasms any time she likes if she doesn't want me to feel the pleasure of it. I will respect the fact that I asked Mistress a long time ago to take control of when and how I cum, and I will please her with all orgasms, or lack there of. If Mistress wishes to deny me I will do my best to be the pleasing horny slut she wants, desperate for her, and ready to cum for her at her whim.

Mouth and Asshole:
My mouth and asshole belong to my Mistress. She may use either in any way she wishes, and these are simply holes here to please and amuse her. My asshole is to be referred only as her fuckhole, as that is its name now. Mistress has the right to put these holes she owns on display in any way she wishes.

Collar:
I am required to wear my necklace that Mistress made for me to act as a collar and be a symbol of my submission to her at all times unless I have her permission to remove it. The collar is currently not in wearable condition until it is repaired. Mistress also made a matching bracelet and anklet which I wear when she wants me to. In addition to these items Mistress can also make me wear other types of jewelry and I have no control and must obey. Mistress also has the right to make me pierce my ears and start wearing dangling earrings whenever she chooses. If I were to remove any of these items even in the case of unexpected family visits or office day, and I don't have her permission I will be punished.

Daily Ritual:
Each day I have a ritual to perform for Mistress. She prefers this take place in public but she will allow it to take place in front of my windows or on my balcony. I must think of something that will be embarrassing or humiliating and do it for Mistress for her surprised amusement. I am allowed to use props or even other things I normally need permission for as long as it does not involve cumming. This ritual should be done in a way where there is a chance someone could see me, but I don't have to time it in a way it's certain someone sees me. I should not be repeating ideas often because part of the purpose of this one is to keep Mistress surprised and entertained. If I do not have permission to skip this on any given day and I do not complete it, I will be punished.

Skype Ritual:
Every time I come to Skype and start a new Skype call I must be doing something to surprise and please Mistress when she first sees me. I am allowed to use props and do other things I normally need permission for so that I may please her, but I may not cum.

Behavior Modifications:
The purpose of these modifications is to require me to behave with slutty actions in and outside my home and to keep my focus on my Mistress and my submission to her.

Every time while shopping I will find a couple opportunities to wiggle my ass like the slut I am for my Mistress and she hopes that I will be seen.

From time to time when I am away from my home, whether it be shopping, doing errands, or at someone's house, I will use my compact mirror to check my hair and lipstick or make up etc. I also am expected to have my compact mirror with me at all times when I leave my house. If I do not I will be punished.

At all times, at home or away, when my hands are not otherwise in use, I am expected to be rubbing, pinching, pulling and playing with my nipples for my Mistress. The exception is when I am wearing something that there really isn't a point to it, such as a winter coat because Mistress doesn't expect me to put my hands into my clothing to do this in public.

Each day I will roll one die and if it is an even number I am lucky, but if it is an odd number then all the curtains and blinds in my home must remain open for the whole day regardless of what Mistress has me wearing or doing for her. Mistress also expects me to use common sense and not to do something directly in front of window that may get me in trouble or not be very smart.

Daily Dice:
Each day Mistress or myself or sometimes together will roll 6 dice. We add the total of all 6 and whatever number it adds up to, I must complete that for the day. These are not permanent fixtures but as Mistress gets bored with them over time, we tend to change them out for new things to be keep it fresh for us both. Here is the list of my current Daily Dice Activities:

6: Free Day

7: Dress and act very slutty and you will remain that way no matter what, and order in food.

8: You will choose a clothing, shoes or toy, send me a link of what you want and then order it.

9: You will roll 6 dice and add the total, that is how many edges you must give me today.

10: You will apply your lipstick using your compact mirror in public where people can see you.

11: Humiliating Outing in your cafe.

12: 50 hits to Fuck Hole meant to really hurt.

13: You will make a public blog video of something you do not like, Mistress chooses what.

14: When you are out and wiggling today, you must do it on purpose so someone sees you.

15: Mistress' Choice.

16: You must wear your high heels to take the trash outside.

17: Every time you pee you must choose to wet yourself, drink 13 sips or make pee cubes and stuff 4 in your ass and plug that fuck hole. Pee cubes remain till your next pee.

18: Attach dildo and mount slutty mouth on it, enough to struggle but not puke. Roll 2 dice to determine how many minutes you will be there. Punishment given if you unmount during.

19: You will be an eager pee slut, peeing at least 8 times and being fucking slutty in your asking.

20: You will wear sexy panties and I expect one hand to rub toy from outside as much as possible all day. Can still ask other touching too.

21: 6 Pictures to public blog, one of which you really don't like, and you have one week to post them all.

22: Full slutty make up and hair day.

23: Today you will pee squatting over your bucket, and pinching nipples either in front of window or on balcony. If I don't feel you asked enough to pee today you will be punished.

24: You will do something slutty and humiliating when taking out the trash.

25: You offer something.

26: Three hours gagged.

27: Slutty blow job on dildo and roll two dice to determine how long. Be sure to lick and kiss and suck.

28: Make me a video for our private blog.

29: Slut cuffed and tethered day.

30: You will wear feminine body spray all day, refreshing it when going out.

31: No manly clothing or shoes regardless wherever you are going.

32: 2 minutes of public humping.

33: Toy will be bound all day.

34: You will wear your bra today and have it stuffed and make sure that someone sees you for sure in public like this.

35: Go to a public place and paint your nails where others can see you.

36: You will wear your pink nightie to take your trash outside.

60 Edges and a Whole Lot of Denial!

So...as if the last 5 days weren't nice enough, I had a real big surprise tonight. You see, last night Sam didn't sleep well at all, and he got up amazingly enough at his alarm clock today but he was quite tired from the crappy short sleep he got. I had some instructions waiting for him, and I told him he was to edge three times for me shortly after waking. Now a week a or two ago, I probably would have gotten some resistance from him due to his feeling, but today, he was eager even if very groggy. He got those three edges done and also got things done that needed to be done.

The day took a little different turn with him needing to go out unexpectedly for a few hours doing some errands that had it turned out had to be done today. I knew was going to get home after I got home from work and I expected him to be very exhausted and not up for much, and given how nice the last several days were I would have okay if he had just wanted to go to bed tonight.

But, nope, my slut wanted to eat a good dinner and then see what fun we could have, and he wanted to succeed and get things done that were asked of him today. While I was at work I checked his Orgasm counter and realized that today he would reach 13 full weeks without a real orgasm, and of course 13 is my lucky number, so I told him we would celebrate, and I wanted 13 edges or 1300 spanks, or mix and matching.

After he had dinner we started edging and teasing. We found that I've been keeping him as such a horny slut that the edges were coming pretty easy, but still very frustrating, even given how tired he was. So I teased him and loved it and soon enough he had gotten 20 edges done, and he told that even though he was tired, he thought he could give me 50. I was quite surprised only because of how long I've waited to really get him back, that I never really considered he could do all this on a day with hardly any sleep, not after what we've gone through. I was happy though and wanted to try.

We did these in 10's. I let him edge, and stop just long enough to really drop from the edge, and then restart. I would just tease him non stop about all sorts of things until he got 10 more edges done. I was really loving it. It was so amusing...and it really made me happy because he is so totally screwed now that he is getting better. After each 10 he took a short break which was perfect for toy not getting over used and losing sensation so this way each edge was powerful. Even better!

I teased him in all sorts of ways. Some were just fantasies that was clear would never happen but the thoughts were hot and he was hitting those edges like nothing. Others were real and things that I do have full control now to make him do, like get hair extensions, or spray tans, or very humiliating things shopping. All the teases were great because they made him edge in a way he stayed relaxed and the edges had a better effect and it greatly amused me.

When we reached 50, we kept on going, because we were having so much fun. Meanwhile my slut was telling me how big the wet spot was growing on his pants from my toy leaking all over and the best part was the only time they were touching my toy was during the short breaks, so he really was a horny leaky slut for me. And I fucking love it.

So we went to 60 edges and I warned that on the 60th I expected him to hold the edge until I said he could stop. I swear he held that edge longer than any other for me before. I don't even understand how he did it, but he says it was being more relaxed now that his body is more in balance and getting better, and if you ask me I think his submission is really strong right now and that helps to. Even though the teasing was just for fun, I could hear a lot of passion and desire in him as we talked back and forth during them, and during those times there was no fantasy, there was hard core pure submission and wanting to be used by me and me to be evil.

Well, if making my slut edge 60 times in one night, after not letting him cum for real in 13 weeks, and after ruined ones in the last few days, isn't evil, then he really should be scared what the future holds for him. This is just a beginning...and I have to say I am totally loving him being this horny for me that I am not sure I ever want to let him cum again! Hehehe. Yes, he should be very scared indeed!

Oh and on a side note, its pretty clear how much better he is already doing because when I wanted him to edge 513 times for me before he could cum, a month or so ago, after several weeks he only had a few dozen done, and now today in one night, he did more edges than he did that whole time...and it wasn't for lack of trying then, he just simply wasn't well enough. And even right now, he is 100 percent back in full health, he has a lot strength and endurance to build back and still some stamina lacking, yet look how well he is doing.

Oh and my slut says that he could pull another 10-20 edges for me still tonight if I wanted. But, I think I want my toy to be usable tomorrow and not over used and desensitized, and besides, I know damn well he just can't stand it not being touched, but I think toy has had enough for one night and needs to rest now and be ready to stand at full attention when he wakes and be needy and eager and between you and me, I hope it twitches so badly right from the second he wakes tomorrow morning, that he doesn't know how he's going to survive the first hour of the day because he is so horny...and yet I might not let him cum for many many weeks!

Yes, this week is shaping to be very much fun. Hope you enjoy!

Very Lovely Monday

I still can't believe how much better things are going the past several days. I just cannot get over the turn around in Sam after he recovered from that winter virus. It is pretty clear that his over all health issues are getting better, and the moments I have waited months for, are finally starting to happen.

I was thrilled with Thursday and the 5 Ruined ones in one night and then Sam offered me total control over him with all slut related things on Friday and that made me so happy because he showed how much he really trusts me, loves me and wants to be with me, and be mine. There is something that happens when someone is sick a long time, that resentfulness at always being sick sort of rubs off to everyone you love, and so I was starting to even wonder if he really was that happy with me anymore or in love with me. Sam insisted he was, but when someone doesn't seem happy it is harder to have faith that they still desire you like they did before the sickness.

I have no doubts now. The minute that my slut felt truly better, he was back, 100 percent and giving himself to me, and being sweet and loving and making up in a day for all the months of hard times. I can't believe we just shared 5 full days in a row together that were tension free (unless you count how horny he is), happy and full of kinky D/s. It's like a dream come true, I was starting to truly lose hope that we would ever get this back.

So anyway, Sam has made a few posts too sharing what we have been up to. He woke horny and eager for me again this morning and I told him I wanted 13 edges. Let's just say the first couple were done very soon after he woke. He has been eager and on top of getting everything done for me. I also surprised him with a new thing...at least until I get bored with it, every day he will roll a die. If it's odd he will have all curtains open, and if it's even they can stay closed. When they are open anyone can see into his window at the slutty clothing he wears or some of the things I have him do. He really loved this one. I love to give him some games of chance, where he has to sweat out how each day will be. Of course I always over ride dice when I feel like it.

No ruined ones today, however I did tease him myself to several more edges. There was also some porn and vibrator stints that had him really struggling not to cum. I fucking love it. The last couple of edges we shared live were my favorite. I gave him only a minute to get to the edge and then made him hold it for a minute. That was a real struggle and I loved hearing him moan. Then the last one I made him hold it for 1 minute and 13 seconds, except when the time got closer I told him I changed my mind and he had to hold it for two minutes. That was a huge struggle and he was really moaning for me. It really turned me on and I just love it when he struggles for me. He did succeed. I was reminding him all through it that he had better not cum. I love having an obedient slut.

And what else...yes, he has been communicating so much better, and he has really been making sure that I know how much he wanted me to have this total control. There is no doubt in my mind that he really thought about it and knew exactly what he was offering before he did it. And I am loving how much better his attitude is towards me now that he is healthier and on track as my slut. I think we both were desperate for him to get there, except now he is the only one who will be desperate...to cum that is.

I made him get me off really well when I got home from work...and he did a great job. I expect to cum often and hard, even while I deny him and that is exactly how it should be. These past few days I have felt so connected to him, and so in love that it fills my heart with hope again. Hopefully the improved health continues and this is just a beginning!!!

Just to Have a Chance to Cum

So Sunday night Mistress and I were skyping again and I was so fucking horny for her. She teased me to a few more edges then informed me that I would have to ruin another orgasm for her. Oh fuck. This made number 9 in three days. She said it was only because she wanted to even up my orgasm count. I was at 15 ruined ones and 16 real ones for this year and she wanted to be able to decide during this week which way it would end for the year.

After that ruined one I was horny and frustrated and wanting to cum, but I also want her to use me so hard and be very fucking evil. I need her to be evil and really use me. I love it when Mistress is evil. I love to see what her wicked mind has for me and what amuses her.

So after a little while I made her an offer to get her to consider letting me cum this year. I asked her that she could decide something really evil for me, and if I chose to do it, then there could be a very small chance that I could cum this year.

Sometimes I really should learn to be careful what I ask for, LOL. Mistress decided that I am going to have to go to a public restaurant where there is a mirror out in the open and I have to apply my lipstick, and mascara and blush right there where anyone could see me. I can already have my eye liner applied at home before going since that takes so long. Oh fuck...just wondering who is going to see me and what that is going to feel like is very fucking scary. She said that if I chose to do this then we would roll one dice and if the number was a 6 then I have a guarantee to cum this year if the task is already completed, but if she rolls any other number then I don't have any guarantee but I still have to get this make up thing done before I can ever cum again for real.

So Mistress rolled...a 3!!! I am so totally screwed LOL...and I love it. So now if I have any hope to cum again I have to get this done for her, and with the way she is pushing me, I am sure I won't want to take too long to get this done or I might go nuts because I am already so very fucking horny for her.

Thank you Mistress for being evil and taking total control of me. Thank you for using me.

sam

Even More Frustration

So last night on Christmas Mistress had to go spend time with her relatives and she left me with instructions that I was to be very desperate to cum, for her, when she got home. And that is what I did. Didn't took lots of effort to be very leaky and horny slut for Mistress. And only a little more to really want to fucking cum for her.

Finally Mistress got home and she was very tired but she did use a little bit too. I couldn't wait to be used by her and good thing is she wanted to use her toy too. She made me edge many times for her again, and I really want to cum. Mistress decided she wanted me to cum to, she told me to ruin another orgasm for her. Fuck!!! That made the 8th one in just over 48 hours. Of course as frustrating as it was I did what she said and pulled hand away and ruined for her. Thank you Mistress.

After a little time Mistress had me edging again. She had me edge a few more times and then before the last edge Mistress told me it was going to be the last one and that if I wanted to have a chance to cum I should offer something for her. I am really loving her having this total control over me, so when I was getting to the edge, all I really wanted was for her to decide and so I just offered to her to please decide whatever she wanted. I could have offered something really great and she might have let me cum but I just wanted to be controlled.

Now let's talk about this morning. Oh fuck, I am in so much trouble, because now I wake horny as hell with a toy that twitches and aches to be used right from the second I wake. I love it. And so does my Mistress. She has been waiting so long to get me back to this state that I fear if she is ever going to let me cum again.

I fucking hope she will.

Please let me cum soon Mistress. Pretty please?

sam

Christmas Evilness

Merry Christmas to my slut, and to all of our readers. I am very happy this morning. I was beginning to lose a little hope that my slut and I would ever get back on track again after all his sickness. So many months and months and I really missed my SLUT.

This morning it is really sinking in more to him the total control he gave me, he begged me to take. I am loving it. Of course I accepted it. How could I not accept it. I was so happy because it has been a progression we have built over the last two years to get to this point, and I know how much he loves me and wants to fully submit to me and please me. And I can see how much he trusts me to, and that makes me very happy. I am one lucky woman.

And so last night I used him hard and he had an edge to end the night after that 7th ruined one in a 2 day span.

This morning when I called him to say good morning on Christmas Day he surprised me and told me that my toy was already very needy for me. Hooray!!! I have only been waiting like 8-9 months now for that to happen. I so missed the days that he woke horny and eager for me right from the first minute, and today he did. I am so so so happy!

So to have a little fun on Christmas morning before I go spend the day with my relatives, I teased him to 3 edges and we talked more about his new life now that he has no control. I also gave him two new rules that we will share with you all soon. On the second edge I really pushed him. I told him to stop asking to stop the edge and just fucking hold it for me, and he fucking better not cum. I reminded him of that a few times and made him keep holding it while I listened to him moan and struggle. Finally I allowed him to stop.

I told him before the 3rd edge that on this one I expected him to hold his edge until I came. So We got to the edge about the same time and I could have held it forever, I am talented that way. I can hold edges for hours and hours and be within 10 seconds of cumming. My slut started to so nicely ask me to cum. He said he wanted me to cum because I really deserved all the pleasure and it really was frustrating for him to know that I could cum and he just had to remain on edge. I finally let myself cum and you know, orgasms are so much nicer when you know your slut is on edge wanting the same pleasure for himself too but he can't. He just has to accept that your pleasure comes first and he gets only pleasure from that. And after I came I let him stop! And he was thankful to stop.

Today I am allowing him to rub and stroke and do things with my toy because when I get back from being with family I want him 100 percent ready and desperate to cum. Yes, that will be perfect because then I could decide if I will let him cum or keep him in that agony for as long as I desire...so many hard choices as a Mistress. Well time will tell!

Merry Christmas, and slut...I love you.
Mistress

Oh Fuck

Tonight Mistress and I were skyping some more and my mind can't stop working non stop thinking what she is going to do with me now that she has this total control. My cock is twitching and throbbing for her and wants to be fucking used hard. I want to cum, I am horny and I want to be used.

So after a few more edges and me asking to cum and Mistress saying no, she made me ruin another orgasm, so that made 7 in two days. Fuck. It is so frustrating for me. It's agony to pull my hand away and ruin it, but I do it, for her.

Thank you Mistress for another ruined orgasm.
And thank you for using me.

sam

Oh Boy, What Have I Done!

Well, it's nice to feel better and slutty again. And feeling a little bit of Christmas spirit I did some giving. Nothing big or major. Just a little something for my Mistress. All control of things related to me being a slut. Hey, wait. It is big. If she's smart (and trust me, she is) she can extend that control to practically every part of my life. I love it. And I know I'm gonna regret it too when things get hard, but that's what I wanted.
But enough of that for now, there's more coming in this subject in another post later.

I'm still horny. Very much so. And now it's harder (but more fun too) when I feel so much better physically. I want to cum badly now. And I know that it can be a long time before Mistress might let me cum again. That is, if we don't count ruined ones.

Like the ruined one today. After few edges Mistress wanted me to ruin another one for her. So I did. Happily. But it is so frustrating. It's not just that one, or 5 yesterday, but knowledge that I have no saying how many more there is going to be before I can have a real orgasm.

But still, thank you for letting me ruin another orgasm for you Mistress. And merry Christmas. To you, and all of our readers.

Love you.
sam

Emptying Those Balls-OMG We Needed THAT!!!

WOW WOW WOW WOW WOW is all I can say!!! I am so excited right now!

As you all know (well anyone who has remained interested in us these many many months) Sam has been under the weather and dealing with more than one person should have to for a lifetime, and this has not only spoiled all our plans of being together this year in person, but also really limited our play in our D/s the past many months. None of which is his fault, just a big fat sucky situation.

I was beginning to lose a little faith that we would ever be able to really get on track, or that my slut would ever be as horny as he once was for me, or that I would ever really get my Mistress mojo back again. Also when you are struggling with health and most of the D/s goes on the back burner the level of submission one can achieve is not so much either.

This past couple of weeks Sam has been hit with a couple of winter time viruses and had some fever and such, just normal sickness for this season. And as he is recovering from this last virus he got a migraine. Thank goodness not as bad as his migraines can be, but still not fun. Usually when he gets a migraine that isn't in the middle of a heat wave, it is because there is too much tension built up.

We have certainly had our fair share of tension. And Stress. And throughout the past 12 plus weeks I hadn't even let him cum at all. That alone can cause tension through the body. So I decided that it was time to give him a little release from tension. We've been treating him with kid gloves because of all this and his newer diagnosis, and I just decided today that it didn't matter if he wasn't 100 percent healthy, he needed to be used a bit and I needed to give him a little work out and get some tension out. I told him that we were going to give him a ruined one.

So to my surprise for my slut not feeling well, he seemed all for the idea when I mentioned it while I was at work. That made me happy, because sometimes in the past he is resistive when not feeling well! So I was excited that he was very open to the idea...and that made me feel more confident again. So I started to think as I finished up my work day about what I was going to tease him with and what I really want. I want to control him....I want it back. I want to push him again, and I am tired of everything being on hold all these months, that I want to really go back with a bang. So I thought of a way to take more control for myself and leave him with pretty much none and just enhance the rules that are already in place for him.

We got started right away when I was home. He hadn't even been allowed to touch my toy the past couple of weeks, and as I said hadn't cum in over 12. All it took was a couple of touches and he was hard and then with the ball separator he was bulging in no time at all. At first I only let him rub and then later when he asked nicely I let him stroke too. I started to tease him about how he is no longer ever going to have any control over what he wears. Some of the limitations that were in place, such as being allowed to remove things if his immediate family visited, are being taken away. If he removes anything without permission, even in an unexpected circumstance, he will be punished as it is not my problem. He fully agreed. We can go into more detail on those things later. Also there is going to be a new addition to his shower time each day
that is going to really be fun!

Anyway, all this got him to the edge in a nice amount of time and oh yeah I forgot to mention that after just a few rubs he told me that the overwhelming need to cum was right back strong as ever. I loved it. I fucking loved it. So there he was working toward the edge...and I really wanted him to have that ruined one for me, but I also felt that it wouldn't be too awful if I let him really cum because he has suffered so much in so many ways that a few minutes of pleasure is also something nice for him. However, there was no doubt what I wanted. I love to have ALL the control, and I love to order him, but even more so I love it when he truly offers that submission to me in a way that is harder than just obeying...so when he reached the edge....

I told him that he had a choice, he could either cum right then with pleasure after all these months, or he could ruin that orgasm just for me...his choice. I wanted more him to choose me, but I would have been okay with him cumming too. Well, my very good slut decided he wanted to ruin one for me, rather than cum, and so he did....and he pulled his hands away in time and just watched in total agony as his cum dribbled out. So frustrating.

Then he made sure I came and came hard. So nice!

Then we took a little break so we could eat and came back together. The migraine was still there but not worse...and the best part was my slut was still horny too! We were going back through the same crap we do every night, wondering if we should skype long or would it perk him, should we play some more or would that screw his sleep, etc etc. I am so sick to death of that. So I finally said that it couldn't really hurt, and that I wanted to play some more.

So I started to tease him well and get him working toward the edge again. As he was getting close to the edge again I asked him what he wanted, did he want to cum? He said that he just wanted me to take total control, he just needed to feel very controlled. As for me, well....I wasn't ready to let him cum. I wanted him to get a tension releaser without a horny slow down, and I told him that he had to ruin another one for me. He did, very obediently, and it was just as hard as always and frustrating but he was a good slut and obeyed me.

Then after about 30 seconds I told him to start stroking again. This was more of a test for me, because a year and a half ago I was able to ruin him back to back to back with no issues and then all of a sudden at one point that cause horrible pain for him. It turns out the cause was what he had to have that procedure on his urethra for over the summer, that was causing all those UTI's, so now....yahoo it works right again. In no time flat he was at the next edge and I told him to ruin another one for me. So frustrating for him and yet so fun for me.

Then after 30 seconds I made him start again. Ultimately in this second play session I made him ruin 4 O's for me without really breaking in between, which on top of the first one, was 5 ruined orgasms in one evening. That was certainly a record for him. I was more than pleased and he was so frustrated.

The end result of this, is that he is still horny as ever, actually still telling me tonight how much he wants to cum for me, but also he is nice and relaxed and had a good cardio work out and some tension released. And his migraine is no worse. He needed this. I needed this. OMG we both needed this. Mainly he really needed to submit to me again, and he submitted fully and he NEEDED that. I needed his submission and I needed to feel that total dominance again with him, and it just came flying right back, just like that we were back to our natural places together, like no time had passed, like all these months of hell never happened.

That is what I love about us, that is how I know we are meant for each other. All it took was the right situation and we were both right back where we love to be. And we reconnected and the passion was all there and the best part is that it gave us some restored confidence. Sam is more confident knowing I can use him hard and he can submit like that and give me all that in one short period of time when he isn't even as healthy as he will later be. As for me, I needed to feel in charge again and I needed to know that his sex drive is still there and he will still be able to be horny for me and that I don't have to treat him with kid gloves all the time.

Also...it is so nice to know that on this night, we spent hours and hours together and didn't allow ourselves to talk much about sickness or worry about him perking up, we just did what we wanted, and we both needed this. I am so happy right now. I have much more faith for the future of our D/s....and even though there is probably still going to be some rough roads ahead, this is a progress and a start that hadn't happened for months, and it happened tonight.

Today is a wonderful day. I can't think of a better Christmas gift that to get my slut back and to have him horny and relaxed all at the same time, and to know that even after months of tension and sickness and stress trying to tear us down, he still wanted me to be his Mistress and he still wanted to be under my control submitting to me just as much as ever, perhaps even more.

Wow, I still can't believe I got 5 Ruined Orgasms out of him in one evening. All that and he helped me cum very fucking hard, which is exactly how it should be. Now we are refocused on where we are going...and I gave my slut a little warning at the end.

I said to him, "You know slut, since Mistress made sure those balls were good and empty after all these weeks, there really is no reason I have to let you cum again for me any time soon."

And my slut said "oh, fuck" because he knows it is true, and very well could happen. Yes..there is no reason that he has to cum any time soon...and you know, if I wanted to be really evil, which I am more than capable to be, I could deny him another 12 weeks and then make him ruin 5 more O's like he did tonight and then just start all over. Yes, I have the control to do that and he hasn't a thing to say about it. I doubt I am that evil tough. :) Besides, on each of these 5 tonight, even the ones that I told him in advance I wanted ruined, he still asked and begged for each and that has made me very happy!!! I am one smiling Mistress tonight...and I am so in love with my slut that I just want shout it from the roof tops.

EDIT: So...as if the day wasn't great enough, after we skyped some more and I decided to tease my slut to one more edge. Now my toy is in the state it wants constant use, and needs it, but of course it gets only what I give it. And then after that my slut made me cum again very fucking hard in a nice intimate way, and I felt very close to him and loved and wanted. So now this is perfect, I came hard twice and he ruined 5 and ended the night with an edge that will leave him horny as hell for tomorrow!

Adjustment Period....

Well it seems there will be more of an adjustment period for Sam and I than we had planned on. We were so excited when he was fully changed over to the new thyroid medication thinking that this nightmare of a summer was almost behind us. But this time his energy didn't improve enough, and many of his thyroid symptoms lingered.

We and the doctor started to suspect something else was going on. So a few more tests were ran and sure enough there is another medical condition involved that is causing his current issues. It is possible Sam has an auto immune disease which many times goes along with hypothyroidism and also shares practically the same symptoms as hypothyroidism, or it also might be a temporary condition he has right now, caused by some of the treatments he had earlier in the summer for the health issues he was facing then. If this turns out to be the auto immune disease then it would actually have been the cause of everything Sam went through this summer, along with the Thyroid medication not working properly. Only time will tell which it is and in a few months we should know more.

Until this medical condition either goes away, or for the rest of his life, Sam will have to be careful. He will be taking daily medication to replace what his body isn't producing, but it also will take a lot of balancing because the medication amount will need to be controlled in a way that the dosage he takes each day will be changed a little based on how stressful or exerting his day will be. We will also have to be careful because if there is an emergency situation this can become quite serious if not treated immediately. Also when Sam is sick we will be more careful too as his body will need more. This condition can be life threatening if not cared for quickly in a crisis situation such as major accident or injury, but it would be a pretty unlucky event if that were to happen and he couldn't be treated in time, so while it is a risk it is not very likely to happen at all if we are careful. So Sam really should be able to live a normal life even if this ends up being permanent. Of course the chance something could turn fatal is quite scary, but the more careful we are, the less we have to worry about that.

This of course isn't a great thing, but we're happy that there finally is another answer to why he isn't yet himself. And now we can deal with it and make adjustments so we can get back to living our life again more normally and Sam can get back to work soon. We are sharing this with you, our readers, because it may still be some time before we can do all the things we once were. And there may still be days when Sam has a great kinky day and then crashes the next, until he finds the right balance of medication to take. We'll see how it all goes.

But no worries...mentally he is right where I want him. We'll make the most of things, and hopefully within a few weeks our life will be much more normal. We've only just discovered this diagnosis in the last couple of weeks, and already there is some improvement, so that is a very good sign that soon enough he will be back to normal and back to work.

On a side note some circumstances at my work which I've just found out about have taken away any chance of me going to Finland before spring. I don't want Sam flying before he's really back to normal, and not during flu season, so it seems our time in person has to wait at least until spring. That really sucks, but that is life sometimes. We will make the most of it, and anyway, once Sam is really back to normal, everyday will be much better than the last 7 months were anyway.

Also, we have some new training to share about soon, and a few other fun things coming your way. Just be patient and give us time to get this blog back to normal too.