Strange Week

This past week has been mainly about helping my slut try to get past his flu.  There was one day when his fever wasn't totally gone and he was feeling a little better that he was very horny and we had a little "lite" slutty fun.  It was just what we both needed.  By then he had been sick about 10 days and he wasn't totally well, and it was a little moment of bliss here and there where we were able to connect in the kinkier ways and it brought us both some refreshment and excitement.  Then it was primarily back to resting for my slut, and finally getting antibiotics.  So I am very hopeful that starting tomorrow he is really going to be bouncing back to me :). 

It always sucks to be sick, but to be sick over two weeks is not fun, and though we have fun whether we can be very kinky or not, it was really nice to have that one day between where I really felt Mistressy and he really felt submissively slutty.  And I let him cum, twice in the last few days.  Both of which he was very grateful for.

And my slut had better get well, after all this coming week is a very special one.  We celebrate our one year anniversary on Friday the 27th and we are going to celebrate it from the time the 27th starts there right through my 28th LOL.  It's an important milestone and deserves it's own time!

So please, everyone who reads this, send a get well wish my slut's way.  It was bad enough he was sick for his birthday, but please don't let him be sick for our anniversary too!

Happy Birthday Weekend

So on the lovely Friday the 13th we just had it was Sam's Birthday.  I just love that we both have 13 birthdays!  We made our plans a while back for how we would spend the time, and we celebrated his birthday for nearly 2 days.

Let's just say we had a blast.  We learned new things about each other and there were some really hard wonderful orgasms and lots of laughs.  One funny thing is that part way through the night I fried my g spot vibrator.  I overheated it must be and it just died.  So what's a Mistress to do?  Well you get in your car and drive to the nearest sex store and replace it immediately.  Thank goodness the nearest one is only a 10 minute drive away!

Sam and I stayed up all night and we might of set a record on the longest skype call ever.  Or maybe not but it was fun.

Happy Birthday my Sweet Slut!  And here's to many more together.

Three Day Weekend

So I treated myself to a three day weekend!  I just love being away from work, even if it's only for one extra day.  And the nice part is I have another one coming up this next weekend.

On the Mistress front it's been a slow week.  Mostly just using my caring Mistress skills because the start of the week began by me ending my slut's Denial Period 1 and that followed with a day or 2 of sub drop which was immediately followed by two days of allergy illness for him because he had eaten garlic without meaning to.  Then we had a couple of good days which really were not really all that slutty because I could just sense something was wrong.  My slut couldn't put his finger on it either.  Well that reason revealed itself on Sunday when Sam woke sick with the flu. 

We can't be sure which flu it is, Swine or Seasonal, but no flu is fun.  Of course I don't want him sick for a minute, but at the same time it was a relief to know why he wasn't his slutty self.  It was basically like everything was more going through the motions for him, and given how the week turned out, I am not at all surprised now that he is sick...that he wasn't able to get into the plans we did have for this week.

I just knew it had to be something, because I know Sam very well, inside and out, and I knew that my slut would have felt more excited about the week if he was able to.  So let's hope he has a speedy recovery because we have both learned in the past that when we aren't able to share in our kinky fun for very long we both get cranky. 

Even though I can't play Sam right now, we have found that his cock is not dead which means that while he is sick he isn't so sick that his cock doesn't react at all.  That's a good sign this will pass fairly fast.  And I am letting him wear his manly clothes and have plain finger nails, but his submission is still here as he asks to pee and for changing clothes and other things.  We agreed he would really try not to lose touch with his submission this time, and work on feeling it even when he is not feeling slutty. 

Let's hope I stay healthy because it would really stink if he gets well and then I get sick, especially since we have two days of fun planned at the end of this week to celebrate his birthday!

Christina

A Wonderful Weekend

This has been a fantastic weekend. I enjoyed my Friday night, but Saturday was awesome. I had about 8 full hours with my slut, for Skype and play time. He was healthy and we were both rested. We had fun and the time flew. Then I went for groceries at the Super Center and got some great deals. I love it when I can restock my house with lots of healthy foods.

This morning when I woke, it was so nice to change the clock back an hour, not that I like it getting dark earlier, but still. So I had a ton of time. I made a delicious omlette for breakfast with broccoli and swiss cheese and salsa on top. It kept me going for hours. I got all my household chores done and then some. My house is almost as spotless as it could be. Shampooing Carpets and washing curtains and those few things are next weekend.

When you work all week it is hard to find the time for extra things. The last 4 weekends I have spent reorganizing and spring cleaning (a little late) my house. This weekend I am thrilled with what has been done and next week it will be done!

I got the guest bedroom all rearranged so my home gym is accessible and ready for use! I can't wait to start lifting weights again! The guest bed is made all pretty and ready for company. I even turned that closet into one that is just for my extra sheets and comforters and blankets. I am excited about that as I haven't had a nice place for them in the three years I've lived here.

I even took a video tour of my home to show my slut. He has seen bits and pieces of it, but I wanted him to have a really good view of what he will be spending two weeks in during the spring. Yes, now that it is November there are only 5 months remaining until we meet face to face and get to spend time together in person and have our kinky fun too! I am so damn excited.

As soon as the dates are finalized and he books his flight I will be adding a count down to all my blogs. Damn I am excited.

This weekend was also exciting because Sam and I talked about control and made some new arrangements. We also have a very fun week coming up. A week of Suffering and Bondage for him. We are starting a new daily behavior modification this week too. It will be something different most days and I may repeat them over time.

I even made the time to make about 6 or 7 hand made cards and play Wii. I know some of this is rather dull and not very Mistressy, but a Mistress has a house to keep track of too. Now if only my slut was here to give me a nice massage after I worked my tail off.

Christina

Ahhh, Sweet Relief

It was a very nice feeling as I went through the week, feeling tired after work and wanting to relax and go to sleep early, to know that I had no feedback awaiting me. Then going into the weekend, where normally I would be trying to figure out when and how to get all my feedback done, it was so nice to know that I don't have to worry about it.

I came home from work and spent some time with myself. Then some time with Sam. Then some time with T. And I made two cards and played some wii and watched an on line show. And now I am chatting with a friend and my whole weekend is open for me.

I know this sounds all whiny and really its true that The ORG is a wonderful place, and I do really love sharing with others. I have shared many meaningful tasks with so many great people, but I just really don't have the time or energy right now to enjoy my role there. So I took a break.

I can already tell it was a good choice. I feel like a weight has been lifted. Time will tell if I am able to return and be active again, or if I have to put myself and my needs first.

For now I will enjoy my break and my time to do what I want to in my free time.

Too Much?

My friend and I were chatting the other night and I told her about how I was going to take a break from The ORG. How it was becoming hard to handle feedback with my life being busy. She said something like "that's because you spend too much time with Sam." I have been thinking about this since. I am not sure if she meant to say "you spend a lot of time with Sam" but the words that were said is what has had me thinking.

The bottom line is that I love Sam. I want to spend time with him. He makes me smile and laugh and we talk about everything. We are close friends as well as Mistress and Sub. We have a committed relationship so there is no reason to treat it with kid gloves. We go for what we want, all the time. We are both into sharing as many forms of control and as much D/s as possible. I have found that the more you have the more you want. For all that Sam and I have shared and tried there are a million more things. We want it all.

So I do spend a lot of time with him and honestly a lot of time not with him thinking of him and slutty things for him to do. That is what I do. I don't take vanilla days. I am always a Mistress, just as I am always many other things in my life. Even when I have been sick, I don't just stop being a Mistress. I still let my slut ask for things and follow his rules. When he is sick there are many aspects we don't actively do, but there is the basic control and rules that are still in place. This is just our dynamic. We have a chemistry and a spark and we love to share time together.

I think what has happened is that the closer and more loving Sam and I have become over the last year and a half, the less we "need" the other forces, the tasking, the sharing with others and the less time we want to devote to something that no longer fulfills us in the same way it had. I keep saying that I don't have the time to be such an active TM, and the bottom line is I have just as much time as I did a year ago, minus whatever I do for TOPS, but I am just not as willing to make the time anymore.

I need to focus on my dieting and my working out, my crafts and other interests. I am not letting go of any of my relationships in my life or how much I give to each. Those are the things that are not too much, that are not changeable. What is, is that I claim more of my free time for myself. There has been a lot of fun and good being a TM but also a lot of headache and drama that I have put up with. For a while I would like to be selfish and put myself first. Sometimes I am tired and mentally not in the place for feedback, but I feel guilty to make hand made cards.

I have never felt guilty for the time I spend with Sam. That is something that makes me very happy and when someone is happy there can never be too much. Sam and I wouldn't have the relationship we do, so strong and caring, if we hadn't been making the time to be together and grow together.

Christina

Taking a Break from The ORG

I am taking a break from my favorite web site, The ORG. I have been involved for two years as a performer and a TM and things in between but I really need a break. I took a break in the summer while I had surgery and used that time to take a step back and re focus. I created many new tasks and it is exciting to share with others.

Then I realized that I just don't have the time. I wish I did, but I don't. I work full time. I am leader of my TOPS group. I am married to a husband who works a lot but yet I still spend time with, and I have a full time committed relationship with Sam, my submissive slut.

All of this has to come before tasking with others does at The ORG. I sent most of my tasks to the archives. It is for the best. As much as I loved being a TM...I can't do it on the same level I was. It gets to a point where I have no time for feedback during the week so I have about 5-10 sometimes waiting for me on the weekends, and then I start to feel overwhelmed.

So...my break will start now...though I am going to honor all outstanding commitments I have going before officially taking break.

This will be for the best, I already feel it.
Christina